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Monday, 14 April 2008

  • Shit, I am so sick. And two days before Philidelphia. Just freaking fantastic. Well, I'm calling in sick today, so yeah. I'm pretty much coughing blood and disease, so haha. And I decided I don't want to feel bad all day in the heat for a measly twenty dollar paycheck. I had this dream that I ripped my braces off and my teeth looked amazing. I wish I could get these damn things off! I've had them on for four years and counting...I'll probably get tooth decay next.

Friday, 11 April 2008

  • Things have gotten so much better. We talked, and I thought It could either go one way or another. And it went the way I hoped, not down the drain. So, he told me he would always be there, and he just dosen't know how to show it. I'm feeling great :)

Tuesday, 08 April 2008

  • My freaking stomach hurts! It's a happy stomach ache though. Have you ever been so happy or excited, you just laugh out loud to yourself? Man, today that is me. I can think of any dumb thing and start cracking up. I'm seeing him after school. Maybe we can repair us. I don't know, he's finally being nice, we are going to have a big talk today.

Thursday, 03 April 2008

  • Lately I have this feeling to start out new. Go some where totally new, even if it is down the street. I wish me and Dad could afford our own place. It would be so much better. We could be ourselves, and watch what we want, and do what we want, when we please. I want my own garden, too. :) I have a headace the size of Texas right now, and I finally cried about things yesterday. I love those two. They make me feel alive. I hate being stuck at home worring where me might be, and trying to have faith he's thinking of my feelings when he decides to make a choice. Oh, and I found some cowboy boots yesterday at Savers! I've been looking for a good pair of them babies. :P

Tuesday, 01 April 2008

  • I love stories of childhood memories. What are we but our stories? You children would certianly enjoy them, and the thought in your mind about how good those times were. The hard times were always the best, and the good times were always a little extra. We shouldn't expect much, and everything that hurts will be a benift to you. Don't be timid, meet new people. Make sure you help out perfect strangers. Now, look at how life would be if we only helped ourselves. We would be pretty lonely. Don't you usually meet people by helping them? You know, like carrying something upstairs and such. It's not such a bad thing. And no matter what happens you will always feel better about yourself when you give some effort to help someone else. Lets go to the children fact. Let your kids help you with things, even if it makes it a lot worse. We all know that good age when our kids look at us as their hero. And what is better to them than helping their hero? It's amazing how smart they will become when you give them many chances to learn, and you get many chances to teach them. It's such a good feeling for us also. Ramblings are the best.

  • My stomach is tightening, and I'm feeling sick. It's so stupid.  I need to just get this over with. He needs to get back together with her, not me. Because I'm obviously not HER

Wednesday, 26 March 2008

  • I have really easy classes this last nine weeks! I'm so happy. I have Trigonometry 2 and then two periods of computer work. And then I get to go home early, so that's great. I'm graduating in less than nine weeks, and then it's off to college for me. I'm glad i'm not going to some huge university. I'm going to GCC and it's good for me. I'm enjoying this computer work I have. It's history, and I know more than I thought I would. It's interesting. I'm pretty humbled.

Monday, 24 March 2008

  • So I got baptized, I got my first communion, and I got confirmed all at the Easter Vigil. I am so excited to start my journey with God! Because after all this is just the beginning. I loved the feeling of receiving all the sacraments. Jesus filled my heart! I need share my experience with David, I think he may enjoy it. :)

Friday, 07 March 2008

  • Dude, the weirdest thing happened to me. I saw his ex and Gavin! So me and Lynnise were driving on the freeway and I was all, " I have to take a huge piss!" So we got off at Olive and stopped at the Quick Trip that's right there so I can piss. So, I parked and got out, and started to walk towards the building, and I glanced at this car and a little boy was in it. And I was all dude, that kid looks like Gavin. I just shrugged and walked away. So I went inside and went to take a piss then I came back to my car. Then Lynnise was all DUDE I saw Mandy! And I was all What the FUUUHHH?! And then I asked Lynnise what Gavin was wearing, and what she described was the same outfit I've seen him in before. So yeah. We were like Whahhhtheefuhhh all the way home. Haha

Monday, 03 March 2008

  • I'm so ready for getting some time off. I think I might quit my job in may and do some camping. Riding horses, listening to southern rock and good old country. It's me, and I'm craving it so bad. I just need to find some people who actually like to do that stuff. I want to take my little cowboy fishing, and teach him how to be a bad ass. Haha, I am so lame.

Tuesday, 26 February 2008

  • I'm so beat. Someone stole my wallet at work, and now I have to go through and order a new license, and all that junk. I'm so frustrated. I need to get gas soon. I kept waking up through the night for no reason. I have to go to the chiropractor after school, and then I have to talk about my Saint name to everyone in my RCIA class. I'm going to take a nap now.

Monday, 25 February 2008

  • Time is a constant issue with my life so far. No time to sleep, eat, or talk with my parents, just waking up at the crack of dawn, and off to new learning experiences I go. Then after a long day of schooling, I drive the distance of about 300 yards to work. My job is sad. Really really sad. It's one of those jobs where you can barely make enough to keep your car running, insured, and all the other expenses that life comes with. As you can imagine, "How does this girl look if she doesn't have time to keep herself up?" I think I look fine. Kind of rugged, but sort of cool. Outdoorsy. I don't waste time to try and look good for anyone. Girls are annoying to me that take a long time to get ready, and when they are finally done, they look exactly the same. I never understood that. Do guys prefer girls who don't take a long time? Girls who can wake up and throw on a lumberjack flannel and not be self-conscious about it? Because it works for me. :)


Thursday, 21 February 2008

  • This week had turned out to be extremely boring, and it's making me crazy. I got some weird hours scedualed at work, and it's making me kind of mad. So , I go in at 3:30 today, but I get off at 7:30, which is the weirdest thing. And my manager gave me those hours today (thursday) instead of Friday, what would of been smarter. So I don't know. I'm stuck working late tommarow, the only day I can really do anything with my friends. From next weekend on out I'm going to be tied up with church stuff, getting ready for Easter Vigil. So, I dunno. I'm kind of stressing out a bit. Dave's sick, so he's not in a very good mood at all. And I'm so excited for when I have no more school to attend until next fall when I start at GCC. I can get some more work in, and I won't be so tired. I think i'm going to try to get a new job soon. I'm tired of my shit job.

Tuesday, 19 February 2008

  • Wow. A lot of things happened last night, but it was kind of a relief! I have a feeling he really does have some other feeling towards me, and not just sexual ones. Haha. It's hard sometimes. We are going to try and hold back in that way for a while, and actually go on a date. But anyways, life has been alright. I need some sleep though.

Wednesday, 13 February 2008

  • I just got some bad news yesterday. My grandma is getting open heart surgery for the third time in 10 years. I don't think she's going to make it, so I'm going to take Friday off from work and go visit her. She is so sweet! I'm just scared for her. But meanwhile this week I need to research a Saint for my RICA class. I'm trying to find a unique one, that I can really relate to. Any ideas?

Tuesday, 12 February 2008

  • Ehh This week is going to be long. It's only Tuesday and I'm already pooped out. At least I have Saturday and Sunday off, I think I might take a road trip or something. I might just pick up Lynnise too. I wonder if I'm going to get blown off on Valentine's day. But I don't even care. It's such a materialized holiday. I just want to be with him. No presents, or stuff like that.
    But ohh well. I effing love my car! We call it the ghetto blaster. Ehh I have a bitchin' stomachache at the moment. LAME

Monday, 11 February 2008

  • Blahh

    I really don't want to do ALS right now.
    So I'll tell you about my life in the last few days. I am SO tired, first of all. I worked all week, and I'm just excited about my bigass paycheck comming up in a week or two. I worked Friday and Saturday, but Saturday night was sooo great. Gavin, Dave and Me went to Peter Piper Pizza and it was soooooooooooooooo good. :) I got to be with my two favorite men.
    And That's about it!

Thursday, 07 February 2008

  • Ash Wednesday went well! My forehead started itching from the ashes after a while. But I felt the special blessing. I think Lynnise did too. Dad said the little kid next to him definately had the spirt of God in him. When we all held hands to sing the Our Father, he told be his grip was strong, and he felt the energy of the Holy Spirt in him. He is going to be a leader when he gets older. So I was proud. I don't even know that child, but he is something else let me tell you. We were driving my sister home when we passed by a house, and I saw a father and son playing ball with eachother. For some reason that brought tears to my eyes! It was the most beautiful sight I've seen in a while. Knowing that small child will grow up knowing he had a quality dad, that was there, and he took the time to play a small game with him. It was more beautiful than a sunset, or a lovley view. I was so thankfull for that feeling.

    So St. Valentines Day is comming up once again?! Ahh man, I am SO broke. I hope that David will be satisfied with a simple dinner out. They say the best things in life are free, so maybe we'll go on a picnic in the park or something. That sounds okay.

     

Wednesday, 06 February 2008

  • I have a long week of work piled up ahead of me. At least I'm making money. I need to pay back so many things today. Pay check day! Unfortunately I'm going to have no money whats so ever. But it's okay, because I would spend it all on food anyways. I've tried to make myself refrain from buying clothes for a while. I have too many anyways. Ha ha. I need to pick up my sisters after school, and Lynnise is coming. Ash Wednesday is today, guys! I hope to see you all in church today. :)

Tuesday, 05 February 2008

  •   I am really wanting to go on another road trip.
    I want to ride a horse again! I used to be quite a frequent rider. :) It is so great. But I don't know if I can do much of that kind of thing anymore because of my back problems. But I really really want to again. It's kind of lonley driving alone all the time. And some things have been on my mind lately. I haven't seen Dave or Gavin for a week or so, I'm missing them a lot. Ehhh. I've been feeling really lonley. But I can't get angry at anything latley. I can't make myself get mad at all, and that's okay. I can't make myself get jelous either. Is this a sign? It's kind of nice for a change. I think this is the real love?
    Maybe.

     


     

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